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Sunday, May 18, 2008

Home

                   "Home, where my thoughts are fleeting; home, where the music's playing; home, where my love-life's waiting silently for me..." That lyric is from a Simon and Garfunkle song that initially caught at my heart at the tender age of 12--when I was away from home for the first time, studying ballet at the Chautauqua Institute in upstate New York.  I can remember just sitting in my little dorm room, listening to that folksy song and letting it resonate within me.  Because it was describing me--maybe not so much the love-life part (or maybe it was just waiting very silently--think mime)--but at that point in my life, I loved home so much, that anything that was different from home was simply hateful.  Something to be endured, with the prize always before me--returning home.  Since then, I think I have matured some, at least to the point where I am not quite so black-and-white in the way I view my world.  See, I no longer hate everything that isn't home.  This is a good thing, because God seems to keep taking me far away from home...

        Which brings me to now: I am on my third tour (musical theater tour, that is--without the clarification, I sound like some kind of veteran, which I can assure you I am not, but only have the utmost respect and regard for those who are) in as many years.  Oh, and I am married to a wonderfully kind, patient, and funny man--and for how long have I been married, you may wonder? Yep. Three years....Anyway, my point is that I am trying to perform this balancing act of loving home, being apart of it, and embracing what my life looks like now. 
  What does my life look like now?  I am doing my first Broadway tour--A Chorus Line.  I love the show and I am absolutely grateful for this job.  I am acutely aware of the fact that the man I love is in Delaware, though, while right now, I am in Los Angeles.  I, with a few friends, am subletting a house full of character and charm with a panoramic view of the city. There are wonderfully citrusy fruits growing in the backyard, providing a perfect backdrop for the pool.  And the outdoor fireplace.  And there is a baby grand piano in the middle of a spacious living room--with another view of the city; it's stucco houses peaking through the foliage and life of this tropical space like so many shy mushrooms in a forest bed.  So, I am experiencing all this beauty and newness, meeting and befriending wonderfully interesting and lovely people, and the fulfillment of a job that really is part of my dream--and I am trying to make sure that Drew (especially) and all the people who are so intrinsically apart of my life, aren't left behind like an old toy after a kid's birthday party.  Don't worry, they won't be...
  Another awesome thing about being in LA is that I get to spend time with my brother, my sister-in-law, and my niece and nephew.  I'll be here for almost two months...so, it's so comforting to have real, honest-to-goodness family here.   
  Ok, so here is my first post.  I'll write more soon. Promise.     

11 comments:

Unknown said...

or maybe it was just waiting very silently--think mime

You were dating a MIME when you were 12!? Scandal!

Jessica said...

Yes. And he was so hot. Not much for conversation, though--but he could do a mean interpretive dance.

Jonathan Latshaw said...

There are wonderfully citrusy fruits growing in the backyard

I read this as they are wonderfully citrusy fruits growing...

I thought "wow what a unique way to describe your roommates!"

The girls recitals went great today!

Jessica said...

I bet it did--I wish I could have seen it!!!

Anonymous said...

I can attest there was no love life waiting for you at 12.....or 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, etc.....until God brought Drew around (or was it Jonathan)? And Drew can do mime really well!

So glad you're doing a blog!

Anonymous said...

I have to disagree with this "jessica had no interest in boys until Drew staked his claim" revisionist history. What about Gideon Webster, Christian Dunn, and John Ebbels!?

And Amar and Zlato!?

Was I the only one paying attention all those years?

Anonymous said...

That was me, by the way.

Jessica said...

I gotta say I agree with Jase-though the sweet little cloistered nun-ish picture you painted of me was sweet, I was interested/dating boys before I met Drew (sorry babe)...

Anonymous said...

I just meant that Drew was/is the LOVE of your life. No one has ever seemed to matter as much as he.

Anonymous said...

By the way, there were a few boys you left off the list, Jase

Unknown said...

Yes mom--you are right--Drew means more than any of them:-)